Hugs are like boomerangs, you get one back straight away.

Elena Liew original! :) And for the rest of the world who has no idea where this is in facebook. Its in WALL PHOTOS. So stop asking me okay? ;)

Because when you're so stressed and sad, all you need to feel is the warmth of a persons body and hands wrapped around you to take it all away in that tiny moment. Hugs, they are a way to tell a person you love them, without telling them.

Hypocrisy.

Sometimes, I feel like such a bloody hypocrite. I'm the kid, who constantly cheer people up, posting and writing inspirational stuff, hoping to make someone's day, and I can't even take my own bloody advice. Why. Why is it so hard? Why is it so easy to make someone elses day, but not your own. Why is it so easy to say it's going to be okay to someone else, when you dont know how much the problem is taking a toll on them. Dear brain. Please take your own advice. Thank you.

The scars on her hand, are how much you broke her heart. OK I FIND IT EXTREMELY STUPID THAT PEOPLE WOULD CUT THEMSELVES FOR A BOY! SERIOUSLY! You are BEAUTIFUL. And it hurts to see you cry and not be able to be by your side. Especially when you're crying over jackasses like him. Why would you want to be sad for someone who wont be sad for you? Why would you want to waste your time and beauty like that! Honestly woman. Think. Is it worth it? Is it worth the pain? Is it worth the heartache? Is it worth the scars? THINK. Because I won't stand here seeing you kill yourself slowly.

I sure as hell wont.

Have you ever been in love?

Elena Liew original picture :D

Have you ever been in love?

Horrible isn't it?

It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.

I hate love.

Goodbye sucks.

Well, as many of you guys know, I'm leaving Malaysia to far far away to a cold foreign country which is 9859827591857093570+ miles away. And my friends, they play an important role in my life. Whole holiday, I've just been avoiding them until the last 2 weeks. Everyday, I make up excuses to not go and see them because I'm afraid I'll miss them too much. I call this, distancing. Well there are a few friends which I didn't distance myself from. But most of them I did. My awesome classmates threw me a surprise farewell :) I thought I was going for a surprise party turns out that it doubles as a farewell too! Hahaahahhaa. The farewell defo ended in tears before I left but it wasn't that bad. So thank God I distanced. :D But still, theres still that pang that the word Goodbye gives. Furthermore its goodbye for such a long time. I'll miss some people in Ipoh like #^@$^$%!#$!$* no question to that. :( But one of my clasmates, said something really really awesome.

Sze Min: 我们不要哭着欢送Elena好吗? 我们要开心的欢送她...
只给她留下我们美好,疯狂的回忆,不要给她留下我们伤心,难过的样子做回忆.

It translates to, lets not cry to see Elena go, we should be happy as we see her go, only leave with her a happy, crazy memory, not to let her see our crying, sad faces to be her last memory of us before she leaves. Heck I'm crying as I type this :')

But well, yes. May me leaving be with minimal tears :D Rather than crying seeing me go why not smile and anticipate the time I come back? :)

Surprise farewell '10 @ airport in De garderns.

My classmates threw me a surprise farewell. They booked a room in airport for me :) It was defo very memorable, eventhough it ended in tears, but I had alot of fun nontheless :D 2P8, Iloveyouguys. Dont you all ever EVER forget that, or me :P

Thanks for taking the time to fold all these hearts for me guys, must have took ages!

Thanks for all the gifts :)

Thanks for everything 2P8, from coaching me maths, to listening to my horrible singing everyday in class, to just being awesome. :)

New Years.

WOW ITS 1.1.2011. Like 9.9.2009, 10,10,2010 OR 2.4.2010, 2.5.2010 ITS THE ONLY DATE THAT WOULD HAPPEN IN THE WORLD WOW. -.- I really dont get it. I didnt get hyped this new years at all? So I just decided to cancel all my plans for New years eve and spend a quiet new years at home :) I'm kinda pissed that I'm a year older though so the WOW factor when I tell people my age isnt that strong :P This New Years imma not make no resolutions because I never stick to them and its the same thing anyway. Well imma take a trip down memory lane for 2010.

2010 was defo a very very fast year. It zoomed past really really fast. But 2010 was not a really good year for me. It was shit. Well kinda shit but there were good points too. Imma just hope that 2011 would be amazing :)

Things I did in 2010

-Met God, became a Christian.

-Went through the shittiest period of my life.

-Made amazing friends that helped me through my shitty period and I will be forever grateful to these people.

-As stated, made awesome awesome friends :D

-Lost some close friends. :(

-Became vulnerable. But I fixed myself up ;)

-Broke that wall around my heart.

-Got married errr..... 3 times! :D

-Became gay.

-Failed my maths paper.

-Redeemed myself on my next maths paper eventhough I was 2 bloody marks away from an A.

-Plan to begin a new life.

-Got effed up badly by some people.

-Picked up the ukulele, learnt to play the ukulele and currently loves the ukulele :D

-MADE SHITASTIC FRIENDS.

-Got a new hairstyle, I finally lost my bangs after 13 years of the same hairstyle.

-Changed my perspective on myself.

-Stopped running about so much in school.

-Played paintball.

-Got ill quite alot.

-Lost people special to me.

-Converted into a Mac user.

-Knocked alot alot more sense into myself compared to 2009.

So thats all I have achieved in 2010! :D Well 2011 better be amazing. I'm going to have a new life, new country, new friends, new culture, new.... everything. I'm quite looking foward to see what 2011 will hold. And I got a feeling that God will make it amazing for me :)

I love Photobooth.

:) Life's too short to frown, so smile!