Thursday, September 30, 2010
:D SHEEESSYY ANOT?! <3 href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_jnz9390PwAA/TKTF2TXb91I/AAAAAAAABUU/F-lFmL-t4Aw/s1600/63301_1626968398958_1379003962_31646178_7458113_n.jpg">
Okay baiiiii peoplee.
We're running outta goodbyes.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Relationships should never come in the way of friendships, and friendships should never come in the way of relationships.
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Friday, September 24, 2010
Monday, September 20, 2010
Ok. I am not giving up. Scratch those giving up shit. If I do then I would have wasted my effort fighting. And also my friend's efforts trying to help me get through it. I dont want to dissapoint them. So I am going to fight on, even if it kills me. literally. I will fight on. For the sake of all those people who had faith that I can win. And I won 2 times, so why not a thrid? Even though its bigger faster stronger now. I.CAN.WIN. My strength is renew-ed to fight on now. Thanks to someone for scolding me outta it. In fact now I'm pissed that it had the balls to come back. It had the balls to bloody come back and disturb me wtf. Even though it level-ed up, I guess I have to level up too. Even though I feel fucked up, even though I feel that I'm not strong enough, I will be. I will fight through this, with the help of my awesome friends and God. Heck yeah I will be. I wont give up no more. Until the brink of breaking. I'll patch myself up. and continue fighting. And you, watch me.
Lol dont ask me what this posts means if you dont get it. Only a few of my really awesome friend's gets it. :)
Sunday, September 19, 2010
1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
Doesn't matter. As long as he looks good beside me ;)
3. Preferred age?
Age is just a number. Preferbly older though. By how much doesn't matter.
4. Preferred height?
Taller than me :)
5. How about sense of humor?
I wouldn't date you if you dont have one.
6. How about piercings?
Earings are cute. (:
7. Accepts you for who you are?
Take me as I am or watch me as I go. I wont change for anyone.
8. Pink hair?
9. Mushy or no?
10. Thin or fat?
11. Black, Brown, Yellow or White (skin color)?
Whatever colour. I'm not racist.
12. Long hair or short hair?
13. Plastic or metal?
14. Smells good?
16. Drinker?Not an alcholoic.
As long as hes not an alcoholic, I dont mind.
17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
Just not so buff, then okay :)
19. Plays piano?
Abit gay. But still sweet nontheless.
20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
ACOUSTIC GUITAR. or both :)
21. Plays violin?
22. Sings very well?
I hate vain guys.
24. With glasses?
25. With braces?
I dont mind.
26. Shy type?
27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
28. Active or passive?
Active please .
29. Tight or bomb?
30. Singer or dancer?
Later people snatch my boyf away LOL.
34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?
At the right times.
37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
awwww. So schweeet :)
40. Poem writer?
42. Campus crush?
45. Someone who likes to tease people?
46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
47. Speaks 20 languages?
Then he can talk bad about you and you dont know it, so, NO.
48. Loyal or faithful?
Loyal AND faithful.
49. Good kisser?
Girls have soft lips ;)
50. Loves children?
Saturday, September 18, 2010
I dont care if you hate me, I dont care if I offend you, I dont care if you dont like my additude, I dont live to please you.
So you dont like me? So you dont like my additude? Okay. And what makes you think I care? I wasn't born to fucking please you. The people who put up with my endless crap is the true people I really love with all my heart. And guess what? You're not in that list. I'm not born to please you because you're plain lanci. You're so lanci you piss me off almost everytime. Control that ego of yours okay. You're not that great. You're not a rockstar. The stuff you say sometimes dont really match up and you expect me to please you? Seriously? I can just cut you out of my friendlist and guess what? I still have hundreds on it. Hundreds who love me for who I am. People who would love to put up with my bullshit. I am who I am. I'm not willing to change for you, or anyone else. Take me as I am or watch me as I go.
I'd rather be hated for who I am then loved for who I am not.
Can you all please be any less loserfying creating like pages for yourselves. You're only considered famous when other people create fan pages for you. Do you people realize how vain and full of yourself you guys are. Oh so you create fan pages because your friend limit is almost full. 5k friends? Oh okay I see. I bet you dont know any more than half of them at max. Loserfying shit.
I'm not pointing fingers at anyone because there seems to be alot of these people out there nowadays. And if you get angry then you're one of those loserfying people who asks other people to join your own fanclub which you created for yourself. :) If you're really that famous a REAL fan would have already created your fan club and you wont have to ask people to join it. Just saying. I'm going to get some sleep now because my head's been hurting ever since I came home from church. Baaaii.
I wish I could record my dreams and watch them later.
Elena Liew orignal :)
I'm fallin' in love
But it's fallin' apart.
I need to find my way back to the start.
When we were in love.
Oh things were better than they are.
Let me back into.
Into your arms.
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you. :/
All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here.
Back into your arms.
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Baibai wifeeeeyyy. Imma miss you loadssss! Remember to leave me something in your will if you die in the plane tomorrow LOL CHOI. Promise me you wont always so sohai okkkk? :) I lub youuuuu. :)
Baibai Me Epic ftw friend which we told each other dark secrets the 2nd time we met LOL. I'll miss you too! Will miss all our epicness too! :D See you in 80 days! Lub you too!!!
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
TO ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO LAUGHED WHEN I SAID I WANTED TO GET AN A, I WILL SHOW YOU ALL I CAN BLOODY, GET AN A. As absurd and impossible that sounds.
Stuff I did in school:
Had lots of fun laughing and chatting with some of my friend's in class today. Never had such a lighthearted chat in a longgggggg time! Had such a blast gossiping about HK actresses! Hahaha.
- Study Maths
- Sleep (ok didnt catch much of this, spent too much time gossiping about HK artists and Lady Gaga, darn!)
- Finish reading Mini Shopaholic
Mini Shopaholic is one of the BEST read's I've had so far.
Its such a page turner! Been reading quite alot of shitty books until I practically gave up reading, but this, dear sir, is AWESOME. I'm still wondering on what would happen if Luke knows Elinor did all those for him. Grrr cant wait for the next book to come out! Sophie Kinsella write faster! LOL. Sophie is by far one of my fave writers. I'm gonna start reading probably the other hand or kite runner.
Ok I have seriously no idea what to do, about them.
J: When all else fails........look cute! Or in your case, look hot!
Maybe I should just keep calm and just do that. Why am I even friend's with you J hahahaha.
NOOBS giving me their facebook password in my password scam! Heard that? You all are nooobsss HAHHAHAHA. I got like 10 passwords! :D Thannkkk you Adrian for providing me with so much entertainment last night. Hahaha.
-ABRUPT QUOTE TO END THE ABRUPT END OF POST-
If shes amazing, she wont be easy. If shes easy, she wont be amazing. If shes worth it, you wont give up. If you give up, you're not worthy.
Monday, September 13, 2010
Saturday, September 11, 2010
No, I dont have a best friend. So stop asking me if I have any best friends. Ever since young I realize that friends, yes their forever, but sooner or later they would be too busy for you, or somehow you all would grow apart. Yes, you would still be friends but the special bond that's there nomatter how far the distance that supposedly would not be broken, would. I guess friends come and friends go. So the friend I was talking to told me, he used to have this super close friend where they texted every moment, slept over everyday and not even a storm could break them apart, but somehow, they flew apart and when they met each other the other day it was awkward to the max. And to think they were best super close epic friends just a month ago.
Thinking back, I realize that I should start not giving a damn about friendships again because ever since I was like 6 someone taught me there are no best friends forever, because I was best friends with that girl really epicly until we drifted. I think drifted from all of my close friends. I guess friendship isn't something meant or me. HAHAHAHA. So me and my friend decided to analyze WHY FRIEND'S DRIFT:
1) They have no time for youI used to have friend's so epic we see each other every day, we couldn't get enough of each other, we text/msn/skpe all the time. In fact I have a few like that. But somehow we drifted. But the thing is, nomatter how busy I am, I make sure that I talk to the friend's I really love alot because I belive if I dont the bond might just be broken. No time, make time. I guess I have a fear of losing people I care about. :/ If a day comes that I dont talk to you anymore it means that we were close but I feel that you dont like me talking to you anymore, and have better things to do, so I stop before embarassing myself. But now I can see, who is the friends that care so immensly that they make time, or who are those pretentious bastards. :) I know now, I'm not naive anymore guys. :)
2) They have other people to replace you
3)Their doing the things you do with them everyday with someone else. (Isnt this the same as number 2? Lol nvm)
4) Never talked to each other for a long time.
5) Got bored of each other? haha.
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Happiness, what does that word mean? Or rather, what is the purest form of happiness. Material happiness? Happiness of being with another person? No. The purest form of happiness, I belive, is from that old woman, from what I saw. But, if happiness is so easy then why is so many people sad, is it really that rare? Is it really that hard to obtain? I belive that someday, somehow, everyone would be happy, just like that old woman who was jump roping. Somehow. :)
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
No, Elena, No.
In figments of my imagination, somehow everything is going my way, somehow I'm not emo, I was the happiest child on earth, and that I could continue to be frivolous. But those were merely figments of my own imagination, voices in my head. I have to stop living in that. Stop all this nonsense. I keep telling myself, do what you preach! Be strong, dont cry. I could, but I wonder, for how much longer can I keep this charade up? For how much longer can I hang on? For how much longer can I keep holding on to this thin thread? Until it snaps, and takes me with it when it crashes on the ground? Or do I try, struggle, to climb up the tread, even if it may hurt me in the end?
Like they said, it would never hurt you unless it happened to you.
Everytime my friends tell me about shit I always think, I'm glad I ain't you. Or this would be shit if it happened on me, and I would never be able to understand her hurt, her pain fully. Now I do. I shall stop laughing and calling you guys losers, sorry.
Friends? Oh you mean those pretentious bastards or those who cared once upon a time?
Why is it so hard to stop, so hard to stop being emo, so hard to just let loose of everything and not have a care in the world. I bet everyone in the world wishes they were like that too, but we couldn't get everything we wish for, could we? The world wont be so fucked up if we could. I have to stop this, I have to stop being so weak, so fragile, cheer up, because I know clearly now that nobody really cares if you're feeling fucked up or not, at least nobody REALLY cares. They say they do, but trust me, they dont. Nobody is going to love me, as much as I love myself. To think I really care and worry, bullshit. I'm scoffing at my own stupidity. Absurd, simply absurd. I feel like I'm going back into that shell, that armor I put around me to prevent myself from getting hurt, but I learnt my lesson. Coming out of that shell just hurt me again. I shall just go back to fucking friendships, because from what I see, friendships end way too fast, the feelings fade, way too fast. Time does not stop for anyone. Neither does the world.
Suck it up and live it it.
Lesson taken, lesson learnt. No point being emo, no point being sad, no point exposing myself to the brink that I feel so weak when I used to be the strongest around. I just have to go back to they way I was. Not giving a damn. But could I? I could. I would. I can never belive anyone who says their here to help anymore. With the type of friends I have, well no. I can bluntly, blatantly say, no. I hoped, I wished, it all brought me crashing down to the ground. So fuck this shit, I'm not going to be the same when you see me next time. No more being emo. Enough. I can take this, one at a time. I can go back to the time I never got hurt. I just have to cut, them all off. I stopped the songs that explain how emo I felt, I tried to stop looking. I tried to stop talking. I just need this extra push. Dont ask me whats wrong and how you could help because you cant. Its all bullshit. You wont get it, nobody can even understand me. I shall put out that shield that was protecting me before. Go back to fake smiles, going back to pretending to be strong. And hopefully one day, I can regain all the strength that I've lost in this battle. Enough being so depressed over myself. Enough. Its not worth it. All the thoughts, all the quarrels. I cant belive I was so stupid as to have faith in everything again, to think that some people actually care. How stupid.
Stop, Elena, stop.
Darryl: No you shouldn't, because its priceless.
I'm so happy! I get my Macro 32mm converter for my camera! :D And its quite awesomeee! I just have to get used to using it.
I'm gonna get it probably before the end of the year. After my finals when I get my results probably ;) Then I'll probably lay off buying lens for my camera anymore. Hahahaha.
I'm such a failure. I get sleepy everytime i'm drunk -.- I was K.O-ing just now falling asleep while I was drunk LOL. Damn faillllllllllll. BLUEBERRY WINE WAS DA BOMB. Even though I couldnt survive because I was sleepy+stoned.
Had a superfly time webcamming with Han Boi and Mayyan ytd! Hahahaha damn farny.
Mayyan: *holding blueberry wine* THIS IS GRAPE JUICE KAHYEE. HAD ALOT OF ANTIOXIDANTS. GRAPE JUICE.
And we were talking about random shit like horny bird, oriental bird, angry bird LOL. I think imma go sleep now stupid wine.
I have no idea, if I should be happy, or be sad.
Monday, September 6, 2010
I went to watch PCK tonight! It was damnnnnnn farny. CHAU LONGKANG! I was laughing like shitt. LOVE the movie, very malaysian, really original. If you never watched it then, YOU REALLY SHOULD.
Then after the movie I went to makan supper with Irene, Eugene and Shawn and it became DAMN twisted and DAMN hilarious. SOMETHING IS UP ;) Hahahaha it was reallly farny. I had alot of fun tonight :) I didn't have fun like in a long time due to my issues and shit. So I was kinda glad for tonight :D
If you leave, I'll remember you. Just like I remember everyone that leaves :'( -Lilo
Sunday, September 5, 2010
So many people is obsessing over my piercing ;) Is it real is it not FOR ME TO KNOW YOU TO FIND OUT! :D
I got a new phone today! Mad happy but its touch screen and its SO HARD TO TEXT :( The Sony Ericsson Xperia X10. Dad says I can only get a Blackberry in UK because of the standard 20 pounds rate thingy. My sister came back and I got ALOTTTTT of chocs thanks to D and Mayyan my half sister! My beloved half sister and D is trying to make me fattt :( But OMG SO GOOD. They bought me Max Brenners and Rocklea road! So gooood! But so sinful ;( Aih I'm getting fatter anf fatter and my damn hourglass is slowly expanding :( DAMN DEPRESSING.
Rocklea Road. SOOOOOO GOOOODD! But so sinful oommg!
I have to start studying for my maths soon like seriously, or it might screw up UK if I dont get an A in my maths during finals.
God pleaseeeeeeeeeee help me concentrate on my maths -_-
Its like, slowly fading away. But theres still like 10% of me thats still holding on to it.
Things change, feelings fade. Life goes on. I guess life is just so unfair and I'd have to live with it.
THIS IS REALLY FUNNY. HAHAHAHA I LAUGHED. Omg I feel so damn bad -_-
Have you guys watched THIS? CLICK HERE
Wtf? This really pissed me off. Bad.
WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE NOWADAYS?! ARE ANIMALS REALLY THAT FUN TO TORTURE? DONT PEOPLE REALIZE THAT ITS JUST PLAIN CRUEL. JUST IMAGINE IF YOU WERE THE POOR ANIMALS. THE VID WITH THE GIRL THROWING THE PUPPIES SERIOUSLY PISSED ME OFF. I HOPE SOMEONE THROWS HER LIKE THAT. SERIOUSLLY. GET A FREAKING LIFE AND LAY OFF THE POOR ANIMALS. THEY HAVE LIVES TOO. EFF.
Just imagine if YOU were the one getting thrown in the river! Wtf I was damn pissed off after watching this. SICK. INHUMANE. GET A LIFE. UGH. Animal Cruelty just pisses me off. Ok I have to go cool down now. Bye.
Theres no point keeping you heart as strong as iron, you may not know whos heart is as strong as iron.
Saturday, September 4, 2010
When I'm free nobody looks for me, when I'm busy my phone/msn/fb all blows up. SERIOUSLY!!! BAD TIMING MUCH.
Friday, September 3, 2010
Green Lip Ring :)
Sry for the ugly photos took them in a rush.
Is it real, is it not? For me to know and you to find out! :D HEY IT RHYMES AHHA.
People which are meant to be together would always find their way together in the end. :)
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Ok lets skip to when we were at Penang.
War museum was FUN! :D And scary, but FUN! I got freaked out when he entered the place.
Edwin : KAHYEEE AH, YOU HOLDING THE CAMERA REMEMBER TO PRAY OR PROTECTION OKAY? THIS IS A MYSTICAL WEIRD PLACE.IM SERIOUS!Zomg. I was damn freaked out la. I didnt dare to snap pictures at the places where people died. -.- and if I was curious if something would pop up I would go, YEEN, SNAP A PICTURE AND SEE IF ANYTHING POPS UP. And nothing ever does and that girl looks dissapointed every time. LOL. From what I learnt, Japanese were CRUEL people.
THEY KILL WITH STUFF LIKE THIS. nuff said. This is like the thing you load into cannons.
Me and Irene were camwhoring at some random mirror in the museum.
After that we went into like this tunnel which gets shorter and you have to bend to get through it plus it was like PITCH BLACK. Thank God Shawn had a torchlight on his phone which lighted up the whole tunnel. But it was sitll really dark.
OH AND I CRAWLED AND CLIMBED UP THIS. This thing was like 30 feet! I WAS REALLY SCARED THAT I MIGHT FALL OR SOMETHING. but I kept telling myself, I wont fall, if I fall everyone behind me will fall, so I climbed SLOWLY and STEADILY and people on top were like OMG LETS SEE HOW KAHYEE CLIMBS LOL. Hoho was like kahyee climbs like climbing a ladder la LOL. Then the rest of the war musem was like so, so.
After that we went to Queensbay. For lunch and shopping. AND THE FUNNIEST THING HAPPENED. Me and Yeen wanted to go into KIDDY LAND, then Shawn was with us. So we went to ask the person, it was RM3 for parents, then Yeen pulled me and was like ME AND HER ARE HIS PARENTS. The person stared at us for awhile then pulled a pair of parents over and said NO, THEY ARE PARENTS. When we went out we realized why, BOTH OF US WERE FEMALE. Damn funny la! We had lunch at the toilet bowl place, AND DAMN WE WERE SITTING ON REAL TOILET BOWLS LOL.
After Queensbay Mall we went to fort cornasomething.
Yeen: OKAY NOW IS SOHAI PHOTO TIME!!So the only thing we did there was not learn about history, it was more like taking sohai photos and chilling under the sun.
"HEY I WANNA GO CLIMB A TREE"
This. was really painful. stupid tree.
Yea, the only unsohai photo we took.
Then we went to dinner with, THIS. view.
Seafood! At some place called prawn village. I dindt eat rice nor drink soup, as usual, so I got scolding frm aunty judy who piled my plate up with food. After dinner we went home and all of us K.O-ed, cos none of us slept properly and we were damn exhausted.
I didnt expect it to be like this fun tbh. I just expected it to be okay, but I had fun nontheless! :) I cant wait for whateveryoucallitinfront mania! :D You stay up from 9pm to 7am. CANT WAIT! :D HANNAH, ORGANIZE IT FASTERRR!
Dont fall for guys who call you sexy instead of beautiful. Their a waste of your time.
I went out with my friend and her boyfriend MADE HER PAY FOR EVERYTHING. Like dude? You're the guy YOU'RE the one supposed to pay for everything for her not SHE is the one whos supposed to pay for you!You're with her just for her money!
You know she'd get pissed off at us if we told her! Ugh. I damn cannot tahan alr. These kind of boys can seriously go to hell. DONT MAKE A GIRL PAY FOR ANYTHING. This proves that YOU are just plain sissy.And guys who think you owe them the world after they give you like one buck? seriously???